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Who: Noric Pellaeon and Xavier Elder
Where: the Sacred City
When: Year 199 - 20?
What: The End

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Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[yeah no, just sitting down, wrapping his arms around his knees, trying to feel something]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

[there's the soft cadence of healers going about their work in the other rooms. patients lying awake, aching, or thoughtful, or bored. a few heelclicks from behind you, as Emain steps out of the room, giving Xavier space. her feelings are as inscrutable as ever.]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[not looking up]

What is it?

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

I'm just going to talk to the healers for a while, then I need to go talk to the others of Ferramut's chosen. You can stay as long as you need to.

His... his things are on the table.

[and then she's gone.]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[fuck this, fuck everything, I should leave]

[doesn't move]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

[it's quiet.]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[getting up to finally look at Noric's things]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

[there isn't much. his old Orion knife, still in its sheath. his Ophiuchus one, alongside it. his vambraces. and his amulet, which has rusted since this morning.]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[kicks the table, letting them spill onto the floor]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

[they clatter down on the stone tiles.]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[looks at it disdainfully]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

[...]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[glares at it before striding out of the room]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

[Emain isn't around, so you make it outside without anyone noticing.]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[breathing heavily, struck by guilt, leaving Noric there, not being able to do anything, all alone now]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

[the night street is empty.]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[feels the passing emotions, worry, affection, fear, calm]

[he hates it all]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

[but you can't stop them. they'll never stop, because they'll keep on living. regardless of how you feel about them.]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[he can't go back home, he won't, he refuses to go back to that empty place]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

[with the table he bargained for. the chairs he finished. the food preparation that's still there. the bed that's still unmade, because he hasn't made it in months.

the garden you worked on. the half-finished parchment, mostly full of crossed out beginnings of a book. the small shelf you picked up from a trash heap, thinking you might be able to fill it eventually. the book he gave you.]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[rubs his face of sweat]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

[what will you do?]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[he doesn't know]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[negativecharge.insanejournal.com]

[time goes on, however long you stand there.]

Re: [Year 200, early summer]

[xistential.insanejournal.com]

[going back to the Healers, to Noric's ... room]